Swansong

First post of 2012

2012-01-16T23:46:00.006+10:00

I know I have not been updating my blog but I have been through a lot last year. There was a lot of stretching and growing for me which is painful... I think for the next few weeks the posts that you will read will be just a room for my thoughts, I'll post my thoughts publicly and not sugar coat on anything so if you would to join me in my journey of faith you're welcome to :)

For years I have dreamed of becoming a leader in the church, to do great things for God and extend his Kingdom. Last year the pastors in my church approached and asked me if I was willing to take the next step and be a leader.

I took the offer but little did I know I actually had second thoughts of becoming a leader in the church. I had a lot of flaws and saw myself as incapable of leading other people. I do not love people wholeheartedly, I really dislike doing administration and planning for the church or life group, comparing myself to other leaders I feel that I am so far behind. I feel like dropping everything and just go back to being a regular member serving in the church.

I don't know, the feeling is weird because I did not have this kind of feeling before I became a leader, I was more passionate, had plannings for the group/church and dreaming with God but now it seems that I just don't want anything to do with this even though I know the calling God has for me. I think it's lack of confidence and all the negative thoughts that just get in my head.

Those are just my ramblings but if anyone who knows anything about being in leadership or has anything experience please feel free to share, your comments will be greatly appreciated :)

Happy New Year 2012

2012-01-04T13:12:00.000+10:00

Happy New Year to Everyone!! So what is your plan and resolution for this year? I know one thing for sure is to update this blog more often !

Off to Singapore and Malaysia

2011-12-02T15:25:00.003+10:00

For the next two weeks I'll be going to Singapore and Malaysia for a much needed rest, to get away from the busyness, computer, and work. Not only that it'll be a resting period but I want to use this opportunity to enlarge my capacity spiritually as well. I can't wait to eat the good food, do some shopping and visit City Harvest Church, I'be been waiting all my life to visit the church and now is my opportunity :)

One of the simple yet most powerful thing I have learnt to do in my life is to make a list. As I'm going for a holiday I made a list of what I needed to do and buy, as a student teacher I have learnt to write a list of what I need to do for my class and my students, even in ministry I need a list of things that will help me focus on what I need to do rather than focusing on things that will burn me out or things that are not important.

Write down your problems, the things you need to do, your vision, your dreams. Fab asked me to plan what I intend to do in the next 5 years and what to achieve, along that the strategies on how to get there. It's simple but yet you'll realized how much it will help you in your life and how powerful it is :)

'Write the vision, make it plain...' Habakkuk 2:2

apologies + giving significance

2011-10-26T21:05:00.011+10:00

Gone are the days where I used to update my blog at least once a week, and post posts that will somehow encourage different ones who stumble/follow this blog. I have been caught up with my teaching that I hardly have anytime for this anymore, but today I just had this sudden thought to check on my blog and I remember why I started writing this again, and I remembered that I wrote

"My heart is that through this blog, lives can be touched, bring encouragement and revival to their hearts. "

I do apologize that I have not been doing that lately but I will try and update my blog more.

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I do however has learnt something for the past month on leadership which is to give significance.

Have you ever been to a conference and experienced something great? Have you ever been to a restaurant and the food tasted like heaven? If you answered yes, then there's got to be someone who has had a hand in making that happen.

Say 'thank you' - people love it when they are appreciated, they feel valued. It's simple but sometimes we don't do that often!

Text them, phone them and let them know! People will wonder if the things they did really was significant. Let them know that they count and they ARE significant.

Here's an excerpt from an email that I received from my high school teacher 2 years ago after telling her how much her teaching has helped me do well in my IELTS exam.

Hi Jason,
I can't tell you how much your email has meant to me. It is so rare in this job to get any sort of thank you, but your email helps me continue to believe that even though many students don't say it, they are thankful for the work we put in. Well done on your IELTS result. I still continue to examine IELTS and know how rare such a great result is.

Be a person that will give significance today! :)

Teaching

2011-10-02T23:09:00.003+10:00

Gonna be my first placement for this semester tomorrow! I'm just praying for the kids to be good and I can teach well ... will be teaching math...algebra to be exact.. got to love algebra :)

Water Baptism

2011-09-15T15:04:00.002+10:00

Loving this! Spontaneous Water Baptism, and really captures the importance of it, be blessed :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xh4SFQP3RRY&feature=player_embedded

80 Followers and counting

2011-09-09T12:26:00.003+10:00

So I have not update my blog in awhile because of my busy schedule with work and class, when I logged on to blogger to edit some posts I noticed I have 80 followers on my blog....wow! I have never imagined that it will reach out to people around the globe. It does not seem like a huge number compared to other celebrity bloggers out there but it is huge to me. It brought me a sense of achievement and joy that through this blog, it has touched lives and brought revival and hope to different ones.

I might not be a good communicator but I hope that through the revelations that gave me life, I hope that it too will bring you life =) Thank You and Bless ya!

Passion- Where is it

2011-08-11T14:03:00.010+10:00

I remember people saying to me that they love my passion and zeal for God. How it inspires them and wants some of that passion for themselves. I'm always in passionate in my worship, prayer and everything I do for God.... However somewhere aorundthis year I have never been so down in my life, I have never experienced this in my 5 years as a christian. Like a marathon we give up once we are out of breath, or we feel that our legs can't move on anymore and we give up. I felt like giving up, felt like throwing in the towel and say 'okay I give up, I can't do this anymore'. The pressures of life, of people, money and the sense that everything is meaningless begins to set in. Where is my passion and purpose?

I believe that this statement I read from an article is true.. it says

People quit because they no longer believe in what they are doing.

I did not believe that I could make a difference

I did not believe that I could make an impact in an individual life

I did not believe that God loves me

I did not believe in my dreams

I did not believe in my destiny

I was drained and weary

...almost to the point where I decide to just drop everything and be a spectator or heck even change church for a season. (nothing against my church) just felt like running away

It took awhile, but thanks to God and my best friend and the most beautiful angel that God sent me (Baby Angela). She had to put up with all my complaints, pmsing and lack of passion, but with all her encouragement I managed to pull through. Seriously this girl is amazing.

God has been speaking to me about my mind, the thoughts that I think and along with the 'seasons' of my life. You see Jesus had to go through a season in his life where he had to be tested in the wilderness. Jesus was tested in His Identity and His Destiny (all these from Angela, see how amazing she is??) and resisting the temptation, the devil flees THEN the Holy Spirit came on him with Power. Are we utilising the Power of the HS in our life because the bible says the devil left Jesus until annother opportunity comes and when that time comes we have to overcome it with the power of the Holy Spirit.

We have seasons of spring time where there are dancing and singing with full of grace

or the summer season where we are tempted and needing to overcome like Jesus was in the wilderness

or the Autumn where we will begin to reap the fruits of what we sowed

or Winter season where we feel like losing our faith, and everything is just cold, even our hearts are cold.

No matter what season we are in. The key lies in the power of Praise, to praise God when you do not see it, to Praise God when you don't feel like it. why? because God is good and His love never fails even if we fail because when we are unfaithful, He is faithful. (2 Tim 2:13) He is our Hope, the anchor for our souls. That's just who He is. Know that God is out there holding YOU in His hands.

You can hope, you can rise, you can stand

He's still got the whole world in His hands-

33 Miles, Arms that Hold the Universe

What Faith can do

2011-07-15T14:28:00.003+10:00

I have lost my dreams, lost hope, lost purpose.... but the lyrics to this song really spoke to my heart. Hope it blesses you too

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Listening to and Hearing God's Voice

2011-06-23T17:23:00.002+10:00

I did not write this but I got this from facebook and thought I would share this wonderful article

Listening to and Hearing God's Voice:

All of us need to hear G-d’s voice, but for most this is very difficult. In reality I took it for granted. Then my Iraqi daughter Lina said to me one day, “Daddy you always talk to us about hearing G-d’s voice but I can’t, He doesn’t talk to me”. I then started to think HOW? If my dear Lina did not hear it must mean that many others can’t hear as well. She was one of the most spiritual people I knew. I started to teach her and others how to hear G-d. It was not very long before she was coming to me saying G-d was saying to her about me. I told Caroline my wife back in the UK what G-d was saying to Lina. Caroline reminded me that this was not the first time this had happened and young people in Baghdad had come to me before telling me what our Lord was saying. She told me that G-d was telling the young people because I would not listen to what G-d was saying to me about me.

This was actually very true and that day I learnt a major lesson! G-d will speak to us about our self. It is possible to hear God's voice? Since G-d is a person, who desires intimacy with those who he calls his friends. God wants us to listen to his voice - he created us for that very purpose. In fact, I believe everybody hears G-d speaking. The real question is - is it possible to learn to reliably recognise G-d's voice when we are listening for it?

The answer is most definitely YES!

G-d is not human – G-d is Spirit. So we would expect that listening to G-d might be a bit different from listening to another person. Is not that much different, because humans also are spiritual beings, made in the image of G-d, and created for communion, and therefore communication, with him. G-d has built numerous ways into the creation by which we hear Him speak. Some of these are:

1. Human conscience

2. Awe of his created world

3. Our spirit can respond to his Spirit

4. He can 'speak' thoughts into our mind

5. The witness of the Holy Spirit - e.g. inner peace

6. He speaks through other people

7. Spiritual gifts, such as prophecy, tongues, interpretation of tongues, wisdom, knowledge, discernment of spirits

8. Dreams and visions

9. His written word, the Bible

10. And the primary revelation of God - his Son Jesus Christ

In addition, G-d has provided ways for us to test and confirm whether what we are hearing is accurate and if we are really listening to God. This is because His is not the only voice we might hear. We can, of course, listen to our own thoughts, but it is also possible to hear the thoughts of others and of angels and evil spirits.

There are a number of effective ways for people to sharpen their spiritual hearing and discernment, For example, did you know that the human imagination is not only intended for us to make things up? Or, did you know that human memory not only recalls information from our past, but it is crucial to our ability to imagine the future?

I want to finish with three ways G-d has spoken to me. Two of them through young people and one directly to me this week. The first was through my Iraqi son David (Dawood) It was about 4 years ago. I had a very important meeting one evening with some Islamic leaders. I was due to go there with some Iraqi politicians and their security. David said “Daddy you cant go to the meeting tonight”. I said it was very important and that I had to go. He then told me that G-d had told him that I must not. I had never taught David about how to listen to G-d he just seemed to know when it was G-d talking. He became increasingly insistent even laid down in front of the door to prevent me going out. Eventually I gave in. The next day I learnt that most of the people I was meant to go had been killed in a serious attack when I should have been with them. I learnt that night that the voice of G-d had indeed come through a young teenager.

The next was earlier this year. I had another session of my stem cell treatment. The day after it I am usually back at work as normal. That night when Lina was sleeping she dreamt that Jesus came to her and told her that I had to stay in bed another day. Lina was the young person I had taught about listening to G-d. She was the person that my wife said G-d had told because she was one of the few people I would listen to. I did listen and I was far better after the treatment than times before.

The third voice came just three days ago. It was during my 20 minute rest that I try and have each afternoon. In a dream I remembered that I had certain dreams in my life all of them had come true apart from one. I had always wanted to work in Anaesthetics, I did. I wanted to be a priest, I am. I wanted to work in the Middle East, I do. Then finally I wanted to get married and have a family. I have this but I wanted one extra thing in that family, I wanted a daughter who would one day work with me and travel with me. It may seem a strange dream but I am rather a strange person. G-d said to me ‘you have a daughter, her name is Lina, she is about to start working with you, she will travel with you and I have given her the 5 year multiple entry visa to the UK”. I woke up, the TV was on and playing G-d TV. Andrew Warmack was speaking about dreams and how G-d wanted to give us our dreams because he loves us so much and wants the best for us. I suddenly realized that our Lord had indeed given me all of my dreams in ways I could not have imagined. I do indeed love Lina like my own blood children. If she was born in the UK she could not be in Iraq with me. She has been to the UK twice with me and call Caroline, Mum Caroline. It is unheard of to hear of an Iraqi getting a multiple entry visa to the UK for 5 years. This to is the work of G-d.

So in this situation G-d spoke to me through something that had already happened, a dream and the TV. So we need to be aware that G-d does indeed speak to us in a multiple of ways. We just need to listen with all our senses.

Andrew White

iPod magic - technoillusionist

2011-06-13T22:55:00.003+10:00

This is so cool that you have to watch this.... Presenting Marco Tempest world's premier technoillusionist.

as per usual if you're reading this from facebook here is the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvXqXcVF5S8&feature=player_embedded#at=198

connect

2011-05-28T22:28:00.005+10:00

A word that I got today from God is that sometimes we connect with God, we get the experience and we think that is enough. Enough to get by our day, we think that it is enough because we encountered God. It's good but its more than the encounter we get in the room, it goes beyond the church, the friday night service, the connection we get in the room. Its turning the connection we get from an experience to a relationship. If we go to God just for the connection to make us feel good then we are protituting God.

The fruit of the encounter will cause us to love Jesus more, not a life of discipline going 'oh I must love God more, I have to pray, I must read my bible' but these disciplines are the result of the heart being set on fire from God. You see when someone loves you, our response is to love them back if not a one way love is not a relationship at all but it takes two party loving, connecting and communicating with one another. I remember the days of my youth (I am still young mind you) when I first encountered the tangible presence of God. I cried for half an hour non stop, repenting and at the same time bowing before the king amazed at how much He loves me. The result was getting the filth in my life, living for Him, wanting to worship God more and reading the word of God. I'm not saying I'm perfect, days I struggle and I think that is why God reminded me to turn that experience to a relationship when I connect.

I just want to encourage you to turn your experience to a relationship. Loving Jesus, Loving people more. Being set apart for Him and eat the goodness He has for you from the word

"I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. " John 15:5-6

Watch this

2011-05-16T21:59:00.005+10:00

and if you are reading this from face book here is the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7mkXyPQ6HdA&feature=player_embedded

2011-05-05T17:34:00.003+10:00

So I have not blogged for ages been busy with my assignments and exams and next week I will officialy be a pre-service teacher teahing math and business. I'm pretty excited yet nervous at the same time. nervous because of all the math and business concept that I got to re-learn so I can teach the class again.

Besides that I have sense in my heart that God is going to do something great in Griffith University and the wonderful city of Gold Coast, I can just feel it. People are rising up, with a burning desire to see God's kingdom here on earth as it is in Heaven. Signs and wonders will be released and life will be touched. It has been too long since we had a salvation and I long to see that again! Key to revival: start off with praying praying praying and prayer that moves us into action!

2011-04-27T23:33:00.001+10:00

came back from camp, refreshed, reignited, renewed.... now let's go and change the world :)

In Melbourne

2011-04-22T09:55:00.003+10:00

Aside from the drama by Tiger Airways and having to sleep in the airport for the night, I'm finally in Melbourne. From what I experiened yesterday I can safely say that this is a place for me to just getaway from the hectic things in the Gold Coast and just relax and get refreshed. I don't know why but I did the same thing last year and I really got refreshed just by sitting out in the balcony worshipping God in the cold, getting revelations and directions. I can think more clearly and get more things done here. I think I'm going to make it a routine that I come here at least once every year :D What is not to like with the awesome food, shopping and atmosphere?

I spend the whole afternoon in Borders reading Nick's Vujicic: Life without limits book and I was so inspired and motivated by his story. I have watched him on youtube but have never read his personal story in detail and I had the chance to do so yesterday. This awesome man of God is doing great things motivating people around the world bringing identity and hope back to those who has none. If you don't know Nick... He is an Aussie bloke who was born without limgs.. no hand or feet... yup you read it right. How he overcame his disability to surf, skydive, swim and speak to thousands of people amazes me. I was really inspired by Nick's faith in God and life when I myself here is struggling so much. I recommend buying this DVD or book to hear his awesome testimony and how God has changed his life.

check out www.lifewithoutlimbs.org

Story of your life

2011-04-11T00:07:00.004+10:00

God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eye- Psalm 18:24 (The message)

Are you writing a text of your own life or have you made a mistake and think that your life is all messed up? God is our redeemer and can turn the page of your life that has been smudge with dirty ink to a brand new clean page. What used to be the worst story of your life can be turned into something good.

Don't look at your own heart and condemn yourself, open the eyes of your heart to see what God sees in You, your position and significance. Note the when , when you open your heart then the good will come. as you wait for Him, you will know the truth of who God says you are. He speaks into your destiny, not your history

Good night people :)

2011-04-08T15:04:00.003+10:00

Even at a time as I'm writing this there is a stirring in my heart to see the current generation and the younger generation to rise up, to carry the mantle to see their city and nation saved. God is doing something in this earth, there is a desperate cry in the heart of people who wants to know the one true God but who is going to bring the good news to them?

Who is willing to rise up and leave a legacy and mark in the lives of the people they meet and talk to?

We are marked by heaven, we are chosen, we are called, we are to shift the atmosphere, are we living that way? Are we caught up by studies, computer games work and assignments? I declare fruitfulness , enough is enough, the drought is over.... I declare that in this time signs and wonders will accompany Your burning ones. Awaken our hearts , stir it in our hearts for a passion for You and Your people. We are hungry and thirsty for more of you Lord, more of you!

Facebook Status + Jay Chou's new corny song?

2011-04-06T23:00:00.003+10:00

Remember to change your facebook status :p

also.. Probably the second corniest song I've heard this year and please don't shoot me, I love Jay Chou but when I heard this song, it really has to be the corniest song after Rebecca Black's Friday. I lost my respect for you dude..

Jay Chou and Kobe Bryant.... enjoy :)

and for facebook viewers here's the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PUABx-Vd21Y&playnext=1&list=PLF9F487BE7E7EA0C4

jay jay jay jay jay jay jay chou,

ko ko ko be,

be be be ko

10 Warning signs that you might not be healthy by Perry Noble

2011-03-31T14:50:00.005+10:00

When I read this, I knew I just had to re-post it because its so true

Pastor/church leader…you have GOT to get healthy…emotionally, physically and spiritually. I will say that the overwhelming reason that many churches are not healthy is that the leaders in the church are not healthy. What are some signs that you are not healthy?

#1 – You cannot remember the last time you clearly heard the Word of God speak to you about an issue in your own life.

#2 – You no longer use the Bible to learn more about Jesus and hear His voice…you are simply using it to find your next sermon.

#3 – You actually begin to hate and despise the people in your church (who, by the way, are the very people you are called to love!)

#4 – You spend more time on the cell phone and computer when you are at home than you do with your own family.

#5 – You are so obsessed with pleasing people and putting out fires that listening to God and doing what He says is no longer the goal of your life and ministry.

#6 – You often dream of being in another church…thinking that if you were somewhere else you would have no problems.

#7 – You are spending time building up people of the opposite sex and having intimate conversations with them that SHOULD be taking place with your spouse.

#8 – You are often overwhelmed with feelings of intense sadness and you don’t know why.

#9 – You can’t sleep.

#10 – You keep telling yourself (and your family) that one day everything is going to slow down.

I could go on and on…but seriously…if any of these stuck out to you then PLEASE, do whatever it takes to get healthy. Call a friend, get a counselor…take a day to just get away from your normal routine and spend time with the Lord.

The church needs devoted, passionate and HEALTHY leaders!

Fruitful day

2011-03-26T23:06:00.004+10:00

So I just turned 24 not long ago and yes I do feel old now, people are saying once you hit 25 you're no longer a youth. Had an awesome time hanging out with my mates that came and the gifts that I got which I would post when I get the time, some are pretty cute :)

Have you ever had a day where you felt that 'wow today is the day that everything is going well and it seems you have accomplished a lot?' I was feeling like that today hearing a transformation and change from my sheep, getting revelations while I was imparting to people, meeting old friends and what really made my day today (besides hanging out with my cheeky babe) was as we were walking along Surfers Paradise, Angela and I saw this dude in the middle of Cavill Avenue preaching the gospel for 1 hour without a care of the people who were mocking him and making fun of Jesus and Christianity, I had an opportunity to talk to the people who were giving out tracts and it's amazing to see kids as young as 6 handing out tracts to people in the middle of Surfers from 7-10pm! I was flabbergasted to find out that everyone that was doing this are from different churches and their heart was to just win the lost.. wow! Made good connections with a youth leader who was only 19 (can learn a lot from him) and even a griffith uni student who was interested in prayer meetings in Uni.

I don't know, its exciting and encouraging to see people from different churches, different backgrounds, different culture doing this every Friday and Saturday in the heart of Surfers Paradise, the place where people get drunk and party like no tomorrow... wow! Talk about community! I was thinking of joining them every Saturday for at least an hour if I can, so if anyone is interested, let me know and we can join them every Saturday or every fortnight :)

Revival is coming, I can feel it!

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord

I've been waiting for this moment, all my life, Oh Lord
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, Oh Lord, Oh Lord

Pray for Japan.... and the world

2011-03-17T14:46:00.006+10:00

We all are affected by the recent events that are affected in the great country of Japan. It is crazy having the flood in QLD, earthquake in NZ and now the tsunami in Japan, lets not forget the earthquake in Chile, Haiti and the Tsunami in 2004. At the moment I feel helpless, what can I do? I would love to go there right now and help with the relief or even be in the search and rescue teams. How I wish I was there. However today God just brought me to a wonderful group of people by chance who are planning to do some fund raising for Japan by selling Asian BBQ food and giving out temporary tattoo. If you are interested please do come by Griffith University next week Thursday and Friday to help raise some funds for the people in Japan. If you are not on the Gold Coast then I'm sure there are organisations in your country like the Red Cross that are helping right now. It's the least we could do....keep praying for Japan.

You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but to see to it you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains." [Matt 24:6-8 NIV]

Sunday Night reflections/ thoughts

2011-03-09T16:30:00.007+10:00

So Semester 1 has officialy started and I'm on my second week of Uni and am feeling the stress. It was a blessing that my parents had saved some money for me to do my masters but I have to fork out the rest of the cash for myself for rent, food and petrol. It has been challenging at the moment trying to save every cent when you have to pay the crazy amount of bills that I get in my mail every week (oh and did I mention fines?) :( I have some money saved up from work last year but I rather not use all that savings, petrol prices has gone up and I still don't have a job. It's hard to try and not worry about these things, I used to be a person to not worry about money but seems like the transition from working to being a student again is a huge change and challenge for me.

I felt that my life has been a chaotic mess for the past weeks, and in my own head I was thinking that I was a mess but God always in His perfect timing delivered a message I needed to hear at the right time....
Thank God for a powerful preaching by Ps Lance on chaos and order

If we do not change then there will be no change in our life
If God can make the world into order (in Genesis when the earth was formless and empty) then God can turn my life to order.
His the author of our life.
God: the redeemer from Chaos
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed everyday 2 cor 4:16

No, everything is not ok, this journey is still on going and tough but I believe that in time everything is going to be ok. I want to know your heart God

This little light of mine

2011-02-23T09:08:00.006+10:00

Just want to share this song I have been listening for awhile, found this awesome song by Addison Road. It was posted on Jenni's site and have been listening to this song since then. I was going through a very hard time, had faith issues, was lukewarm, felt like giving up and have no vision for my life. It was not easy with all the disappointment I have in myself and other things, but this song really encouraged me and lit a small fire again that was once burning bright.

p.s- and again this might not show on facebook so you can click on view original post to watch it. I'll be posting this on facebook anyway..

Here's a little flame inside a soul
Some shine bright
Some shine small
The rains will come
And the waters rise
But don't you ever lose your light

In this life you will know
Love and pain
Joy and sorrow
So when it hurts
When times get hard
Don't forget who's child you are

This little light of mine
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine
I'm Gonna let it shine
Gonna let it shine

May you live each day
With no regret
Make the most of every chance you get
And your eyes get wide
When you look at the stars
With the same sense of wonder as a child's heart

With the ones you love
Treasure the time
And for those who are gone
Keep the memories alive

Hold on to your dreams
Don't ever let go
There's a fire inside you
Burning with hope

here will be days when you wanna give up
When clouds settle in
But after the rain comes the sun
Don't you ever forget
Don't forget
Don't, don't forget

One day there will be no more pain
And we will finally see Jesus' face
So until then I'm gonna try
To brave the dark
And let my little light shine

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2011-02-20T00:55:00.002+10:00

The storms might be rough, the valley might be deep, the ocean might be wide right in front of you but let go and let God. His in control. Are you allowing God to be the Lord in every area of your life?

Funny English-Chinese

2011-02-11T11:31:00.005+10:00

This is hilarious... read it aloud, I'm sure you guys can speak Chinese in 5 minutes... I guarantee you.... Keh Len Tee

note: except for no:4, 7, 16 and please don't speak it out

so what has been happening?

2011-02-04T21:23:00.009+10:00

I guess I owe my readers an explanation for the lack of updates. It's not that I have no inspiration or have been busy playing video games bur rather been hit with an intesive course of four classes and 2 assignments all jam packed in 1.5weeks. I've started my new course in Masters of Teaching: Secondary Education and have already embarked on a new journey of becoming what I've always wanted to do, which is to be a teacher. I must say that I've already learnt a lot in my 4 days of intensive class compared to my 3 years in getting my Bachelor of Business.

It's interesting to learn about different philosophies in teaching from Gandhi, Friere, Bell Hooks and many other greats to develop your own philosophy for teaching. I still have a lot to learn and thank God for teachers in my church that can help me :P *coughs*

I know that this blog has been mainly on my reflections and revelations from God that can encourage others. I was thinking of creating another one on Education and Teaching. I think this course has tapped into something that was dormant in me for awhile and now has come alive. Never in my life I've enjoyed doing assignments, studying and learning. (could be because of my awesome lecturer). Neverthless I'm pumped, stoked and ready to be on this journey of becoming Great Teacher Jason! GTJ!! (ok lame I know -_-" )

The mediocre teacher tells, the good teacher explains. The superior teacher demonstrates. The great teacher inspires. - William Arthur Ward

I want to inspire by believing in the kids, giving hope and power to those who does not. Believing in all they can do and be, letting go of what others tell about them....

Being a Teacher

2011-01-28T08:43:00.003+10:00

I have come to the frightening conclusion that I am the decisive element in the classroom.

It's my personal approach that creates the climate.

It's my daily mood that makes the weather.

As a teacher, I possess a tremendous power to make a student's life miserable or joyous.

I can be a tool of torture or an instrument of inspiration.

I can humiliate or humor, hurt or heal.

In all situations, it is my response that decides whether a crisis will be escalated or de-escalated,

And a student humanized or dehumanized.

Haim Ginott, Author and Teacher

Happy Australia Day

2011-01-26T11:19:00.004+10:00

Happy Australia Day to all! Let's all not forget the new citizens (Congrats Fab) and the flood victims. Get your BBQ fired up and ~~beer~~ ready, go to the beach, swim and stay safe! :)

Preparation

2011-01-18T19:51:00.004+10:00

As I'm sitting here waiting for Baby A to finish cooking and watching the Australian Open, I just realised I have not updated my blog for more than a week. A lot of crazy things has happened, got into a car accident, hoping for my application for Masters of Teaching to be successful (and it starts on the 24th!), preparation for Gen418 and our Uni/Youth service Infuse and a lot of disappointment and discouragement, but what makes a person a fighter and warrior is that they choose to pick themselves up when they are down and fight through the tough times, giving the sacrifice of praise even though there's pain in the offering.

I've been reading a lot of books on leadership in preparation for what is to come. God spoke to me clearly that 'He has called me to be a leader' in prayer meeting 2.5 years ago and I have been watching, learning and trying my best to live it out.

As I step into more of that role I realized there's a lot of costs. Investing in people's lives, and people who might criticise you can drain you emotionally. The attack can somehow makes you wonder if you're even worthy to be in that position. Another thing I found out was that the devil hates you a lot. As Ed Young said... A whole notha level, a whole notha devil.

I realised the intensity of the attacks on me has been so great and much for the past few months. Lies, temptations, questions have all got me, for the first time ever I felt as if poison darts has injected in my heart whenever I get these attacks. I can literally feel 'the fierty darts' from the enemy.

I realised there are personal things that are not wrong but have to give up in order to live a life of significance. God has speaking to me about pruning things off in my life that will hold me back or that will hinder God's involvement in my life.

There'll probably me more things that I will learn as I go on but at the end of the day I don't want to give up and throw the towel......

'Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up' Gal 6:9

what is life?

2011-01-09T23:59:00.000+10:00

First post of 1/1/11 + Miracle!!!

2011-01-01T23:29:00.005+10:00

I wasn't planning on blogging or writing my first post of 2011 in the first day of the year but something funny happened at work that I had to share.

Some of you might know I managed to get Sunday off work which is a good thing because it means I can focus my energy on the church and not get tired but I never knew the reason why my manager gave me Sunday off, I just thought it was because I had church so she gave me the Sunday off. Turns out I found the real reason today.... and the reason was 'I was practicing to be a priest' so apparently I managed to get Sunday off. I thought I find that funny and cute. I am a royal priest :)

However! The coolest part for today was at work. The hotel was fully booked and we can't move any guests to any room because it was 100% occupancy. There were two problems with two rooms which me and my supervisor tried to fix.

1.) remote had dead batteries, screw was on the remote control, needed a screwdriver. Problem was maintenance had gone home and there were no screwdriver and new batteries available. Poor Guest can't watch TV or Play their Wii.

2.) Air corn in another room was dead, the panel used to control the air corn was dead and we couldn't fix it. again... maintenance was gone... poor guest had to sleep tonight with no A/C

My supervisor then found an odd looking screwdriver and asked me to give it a go on the remote to see if I could get the batteries out. I went to the room, it didn't fit in the screw and the sudden thought just hit me. 'Why not just command the batteries to have power again?' and so I laid hands on the remote control and released power to the remote control. Tried it and the remote started working again!!! Then I got excited and went to the room where the A/C wasn't working and turn off the power, commanded it to work and turn on the power and it WORKED!! as if nothing has gone wrong. is that a way to start the new year or what? I told my supervisor the good news that I prayed and it worked and asked if she would like to come and see the A/C working... and she said 'no need I believe you'

Sure the Remote Control and the Aircorn didn't accept Jesus but it was still a miracle, seeing how God can even cause 'dead' things to work again. oh and yes... pretty much word spread quickly that I was 'practicing' to be a priest. Let's hope my workplace can be changed for the glory of God! :)

Happy New Year and top 10 posts of 2010

2010-12-31T16:24:00.007+10:00

Just want to wish you all a Happy New Year! 2010 is going to be over soon and I thank God for a fruitful and great year. Been seeing breakthroughs and even the desires of my heart fulfilled. ~~And even more traffic for my blog~~ XD Of course there are some rough times but God is still good no matter what.

What am I expecting for 2011? A lot of stuffs provided if I’ll be able to stay and that’s my biggest hurdle at the moment but I know everything is going to be ok. Either way I’m going to love Jesus more and go from glory to glory.

And here are the top 10 posts of 2010! ( in no particular order)

1.) But God
2.) I'm not as good as
3.) Consolation Prize
4.) Sunday Night Reflections
5.) got to love twitting
6.) Psalm 100
7.) Trust God for who He is
8.) 2010 Dreams Moving Ahead
9.) Thinking too much- Unbelief
10.) The call to nazarite consecration by Lou Eagle

Thinking too much- unbelief

2010-12-27T22:07:00.013+10:00

This is part of a journey in my current life that I would like to share and hopefully by the end you can celebrate the victory and breakthrough with me.

As you know a few posts ago I was babbling on about how I wasn't sure what my future would be.. IF God would be able to allow me stay, IF He would open the door for me seeing other people's door closed, IF I were to go home what was there for me to do? All these questions just keep hitting me and few weeks ago I decided to add the 'Popular posts' function for my blog and found out that my post on 'But God' was one of the popular post. I went in and have a read again and these sentences that I wrote hit me.

"The vision that God has given us is dead, speak life to it and I’ll breathe life to it, prophecy to it

Some of the visions and dreams that God had for me was dead, I didn’t believe in it because there wasn’t fruit or rather, its dead and once its dead its dead. However I began to speak life to it, prophecy the visions and dreams God has for me..."

I can't believe I wrote that at that time, and now it has encouraged me again after reading it. I have chosen to finally let go ,made the decision to not worry and not let it be a poison that would affect my relationship with God. If God's will is for me to stay.. He WILL make a way..... there's no way He can go back in His words. There's also this dimension of unbelief that I was having.. I had no faith... I was thinking God does not want to bless...God will this come to pass? I sit and think think think.. I think I think too much.

Heb 3:12 says See to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God

I had no faith, had a heart of unbelief , a heart that was deceitful. I remember Bill Johnson once said unbelief is partnering with the devil. I've been feeding doubt by building cases, asking questions, that it has infected my life. But why must I think evil in my heart? Why do I say no when God says yes? yes to the dreams He has for me, Yes for a great plan for my life, Yes that He wants to partner with me in this...

Why not? His desire is to bless, but we must receive.. receive by faith. Believe and not doubt. Believe that you have received them. If you think you are going to be a failure you are, if you think you are going to be poor you are....As a man thinks in his heart (heart again.. see the connection?), so is he. Dr Cho talks about confessing a thousand times, what are you speaking?? That was why I shared on Sunday that declaring, confessing shifts not only the atmosphere but You! That is why I think Dr Cho is a spiritual giant and through his own breakthrough has opened the door for others... I remember confessing that I was going to get a job and I got it, I remember confessing that I'm going to see healings and miracles in my life and I saw it. If you don't ask and speak it, no matter how big God is, nothing is gonna happen.

The greatest thing I have now is my personal testimony with God. I can look back on what God did for me in the past, all these times His favor was on me, the times I made Him small, He showed himself strong, the times I thought all was lost, a miracle happened. Through my own experiences with God I remember His goodness, His provision and His faithfulness.

I'm not going to hang my head but raise my hand and sing of His goodness and faithfulness.

I might or might not get it but I've made the decision to know whatever it is.. God knows what's best.

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-21T09:58:00.004+10:00

Firstly sorry for the lack of update for the past week, I do however had many things to write on dreams, seasons and faith. Been too caught up with work and games that I don't have time to write it.

This is just a short entry to wish everyone and my readers a Merry Christmas!! You're ALL invited to come over to my house this Thursday for Christmas Dinner, Pm me if you would like to come, I won't be giving out my address to keep myself away from any stalker or any crazy fans of mine ;)

p.s- if you are overseas, fly over to the Gold Coast and I'll sort out accomodation for you =)

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Update: Just wanted to share this by Perry Noble on Peace.. just a summary but you can get the whole thing from his podcast

“Peace is not something we work for or earn on our own – it is a gift given to us.”
“When you do not have peace you try to cope and manufacture it.”
"You cannot fix what is wrong on the inside by rearranging what is on the outside.”
“The real lack of peace is not because we don’t have enough stuff but rather because we don’t have the right relationships with God and others.”
“When we focus on fear we become a failure – when we focus on the Father it increases our faith.”

end of 2010 (almost)

2010-12-12T00:50:00.004+10:00

well its almost the end of 2010....

This year has been good, because God is good. Starcraft 2 came out, Black ops, got a PS3, Cheeky babe, saw a breakthrough in healings and miracles, seeing where God has taken me from the Jason of 09' to the Jason of 10' has been an amazing journey, the 40 day fast during the start of the year was worth it.

However my race has been put to a halt for the past week because I couldn't sense His presence, I'm not backslidden technically but I find it hard to connect in with God during my quiet time. lots of crazy stuffs been happening with other people, and I'm still unsure about my Visa. Should I study again? but if I got my PR studying would be so much cheaper. I've got no home, but here on the Gold Coast... I've never really fitted in back in Malaysia or Brunei (no offence, people are great but it just doesn't feel like home) I have a great destiny planted in this church and it'll all be a waste just leaving, I have so much to grow. End of 2005 God has called me to be in Australia and now I know the reason why, my heart burns for this nation, for the people and for the church.

This is no excuse though because I want to keep pressing in, keep going on till I see the breakthrough. Procrastination is a killer and I don't want to waste a day not just worshiping but praying too. I find that worshiping in itself is good but without prayer there's something missing really. Prayer is when you find yourself drawing near to God and that's where your secret history with God is made. I want to believe for a miracle, God owns the whole world, I'm sure its possible even though in my eyes it seems impossible.....

'Lord teach me to pray'

Dream Big: prologue

2010-12-05T01:06:00.003+10:00

what are your dreams? Are you living life as if you weren't afraid of anything? What would your life look like if you were ten times more courageous?

10 Scriptures to boost your identity in Christ

2010-12-02T13:22:00.002+10:00

I just read this from Dean Rush's site, one of the pastor from C3 Auckland, read it, loved it and would like to share what he wrote. deanrush.net

Get a fresh revelation of who you are in Christ

quote these scriptures of over your life, your job, your family, your future and you will never be the same!

1. 1 John 3:1 See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!

2. Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength

3. Romans 8: 31 If God is for us who can be against us

4. Psalm 139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made

5. 1 Corinthians 6:19 Do you not know that you are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit lives in you

6. Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

7. 2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation: The old has gone, the new has come

8. 1 John 4: 4 greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world

9. 2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline

10. 1 John 5:4 for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith

Tong Hua (童话) Cover by Jason Chen & J Rice

2010-11-29T19:18:00.003+10:00

I used to listen to this song a lot, and it still is one of my favorite Chinese song. I always wondered how it would sound like if you sang it in English and this cover just nails it! Listen when Rice sings the Mandarin part of it. This white guys chinese is better than mine -_- Too awesome not to watch/listen to! Lets hope they do a full chinese version

Few days to go...

2010-11-26T02:41:00.005+10:00

Few days to go till I fly back to the Gold Coast, its been fun having this break not looking forward to work but looking forward to see my Chicky Babe ;)

So I tried asking my company if they were willing to sponsor me for a PR and they told me they were not willing to (bummer) Good thing I received the news after doing my quiet time so I didn't feel discouraged. Did I feel disappointed? yes, but not to the point I would go to depression like before. I'll remember that disappointment is an opportunity for a miracle. Even if I don't see good, I don't feel good, I'll choose to remember good. I choose to remember how God has brought me so far for the past 4 years and His favor on me this year doing more than I could've imagined.

I'm really glad that I had this holiday to reflect more and try to finish books that I started earlier this year :p One thing God reminded me while I was on the bus few days ago was about me being a trailblazer. I always thought it was just about ministry but the sudden thought hit me, no one in church has applied for PR before, or some have applied but didn't get it and I just have this sense God is gonna use this situation that I'm going through to bring a breakthrough and be a testimony to others.

Is it normal to intercede and out of the blue you blurted out 'I wanna die now' while interceding? That was one interesting experience

Amber Brooks- like you promised

2010-11-25T16:22:00.005+10:00

A song i've been listening this week, that has really touched me. Amber Brooks a very anointed worship leader
Amber Brooks- like you promised.. the video won't show on facebook but its on my site.

(oh and I've pre-ordered the new Jesus Culture album- Come away which should arrive on my doorstep on Monday :) )

Stir these stagnant waters of my soul,
Merge me with Your river which springs life,
I don’t have all the right words to say
That will provoke You to want me
Anymore than you already do.

Chorus:
So won't You come,
Come like You promised
Pour out Your Spirit,
Pour out Your Spirit!

Overcome the darkness of my life,
Jesus be the strength of my life.
Reaching past my hiding,
Oh, reach out to my running,
Oh, Lord, come fill my soul with Your love!

You love like a Father!
You love like a brother!
You love like a Lion,
Fierce Like no other!
You violently chase me
Down, to embrace me.
Engulf me,
In who You are!

Brunei: Kingdom of unexpected treasures

2010-11-23T00:17:00.020+10:00

I have not done a blog on travelling before so here's my first ill attempt to blog about my visit to the country I grew up in for the first 17 years of my life and also to promote this little country
called Brunei. Not many people know about this little country, except probably for most middle eastern country because its a muslim nation and in the last few years more Asian countries are aware of Brunei because of this 'unxpected treasure' that was discovered. I wish it was me =( but this guy beat me to it, Wu Zhun got famous through his boyband and appearing in many popular Taiwanese teen idol drama. So whenever I tell someone from Taiwan or China I grew up in Brunei they would go 'oooo wu zhun!'

Yes, that's him

Brunei is only well known for its oil and gas, and the Sultan used to be the richest man in the world before Bill Gates. Anyhow we only pay $0.52 a litre of gas, there's no taxes, Bruneians are rich people (i'm not rich... Im Malaysian) and because of that there is a downside, the country doesn't get many toursits and even though its almost the same size as Singapore there aren't many things to do here. I miss the Theme park we used to have which has closed because it wasn't making any money. However there ARE a few things that are worth visiting like the 6 star Empire hotel which is worth staying and has worn awards for being the best Golf Resort in The Asia Pacific.

Funny enough I managed to do a bit of sight seeing myself. Brunei has the largest (I think) if not one of the largest water village in the world and to be honest, it was quite interesting and I actually enjoyed the ride on the speedboat on the river. I actually felt like a tourist, maybe because I've been away for years!!

People travel with their speed boats or taxi boats around Kampong Ayer (the water village)

This is the school

A mosque in the middle of the village

I wonder if the students in the school ever wonderd if one day the wood would rot,

turn weak and fall in the river in the middle of the class.

That is not to say people are not advanced in the village. Look! There's 3 Satellite dish in that house.

Kids swimming in the river, but the water's really dirty with people throwing garbage in the river =(

New villages,oh also there are A/C in the the village lol

... and even a Gas Station, so cool!

and also Police Station

This boat ride was like many other river cruise I've been on, but neverthless it was pretty exciting because it's different and theres this 'Brunei' Feel to it.

We got into deep in the forest, swamps and there's a chance you'll encounter snakes and crocodilesSo you got to hire a Ninja. kidding. That's my boatman

But we got to see LOTS of Proboscis Monkey!!! Which made this trip relaly worth it.
I can't believe I have 6 days left before I have to go back to reality and work. This short holiday has been good, managed to rest, relax and God speaking to me about my PR situation, now I got to have faith and noit worry so much about it and pray for a miracle.

Mario's read... are you?

2010-11-20T01:12:00.001+10:00

Looks like Mario and Donkey Kong are ready to take over the world...... are you??

revival is here

The call

2010-11-15T17:38:00.002+10:00

Ps Lance was sharing about Leadership and the calling from God on Sunday and it reminded me what God spoke to me in the beginning of this year through Luke 1:29-38

God's favor was on Mary but it lead to pain, people ridiculed her and Joseph her husband wanted to leave her. Not only that but her son would be one that would be rejected and murdered. Mary had a great calling to give birth to the Son of the Most High that His kingdom will never end. I'm not sure how I got this during my quiet time but I wrote and highlighted 'A great calling comes with a great price'

That spoke to me for sure but the problem is I haven't really asked myself what the cost and price is. I know God has called me in the area of Leadership, there are times I really want to run away from it or not even go into it but there's something in my heart that wants to be in that position.
God has put greatness in us that is why we are longing for greatness, to be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. Lance shared the leaders fail because when the time comes to pay the price, they fail... when it comes to perseverance, forgiveness, money or even servanthood are we willing to pay the price for it?

God doesn't look at our ability but our heart.

We may see that we are weak, we lack ability but God has said that His going to use the weak things of the world to same the strong. (1 Cor 1:27).

Lord I remember the promise you gave me to be a person of Destiny that will leave a Legacy. Mould me, Shape me , Use me, I'm willing to pay the price no matter what because it's worth it.

You have given to me
More than this world could give
My purpose is found in You

heading home!

2010-11-10T00:09:00.002+10:00

yay! A week to go and I'll be heading home to my hometown Brunei and Malaysia! I haven't been home in two years and I'm craving for all the local food , but before that I have to build and iron stomach because the last time I went back, I had a bad stomach for a few days which wasn't good. Another thing I'm looking forward to is shopping :) time to update my fashion and get new clothes, I'm interested to see how the young people dress now compared to two years ago, I'm pretty sure it has changed a lot in Malaysia.. not too sure about Brunei yet lol. Oh how could I not forget to meet up my awesome fans... I mean friends back home, you know who you are ;)

Rockstar Lee Is CoMinG HoMe!

Are you a champion?

2010-11-06T00:15:00.002+10:00

These trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold- and your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being tried by fiery trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is reavealed to the whole world. 1 Peter:7 NLT

Pop Culture Pumpkins

2010-10-31T23:14:00.006+10:00

Church was good on Sunday and God gave us a threat! Awesome! Besides that I don't celebrate Halloween but I was fascinated on the Pumpkins that were out there...check out some awesome ones

Autobots

Snoopy!!!

The Death Star

but....we there's also Twilight, Justin Bieber and Lady Gaga Pumpkins..... really??

Dreams....

2010-10-30T15:45:00.004+10:00

Tenth Avenue North- By Your Side

2010-10-28T20:27:00.000+10:00

Why are you striving these days?
Why are you trying to earn grace?
Why are you crying?
Let me lift up your face just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love?
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough?
To where will you go child?
Tell me where will you run to where will you run?

'Cos I'll be by your side wherever you fall
In the dead of night whenever you call
And please don't fight these hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands at my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in and give you life
I wanna give you life

'Cause I I love you I want you to know
That I yeah I love you I'll never let you go
No no

Thoughts

2010-10-26T00:11:00.005+10:00

Last week was interesting, lots of things happened. Was a very challenging and tough week where I have to face so many things at once and got a bit frustrated at myself. Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing things right, sometimes I wonder if I make a small mistake would it have an effect on other people, I kind of understand now when my friend told me that you'll have to pour out a lot of sweat and tears to get the other person to move even just a bit. It's not easy but I can imagine the outcome when the person will one day be moulded and ready and everything was worth fighting for.

I think that's how God sees us as well, that we are nothing but a clay being shaped and moulded in His hand. God has been showing me to see in His lenses. We are all messed up, still growing and learning and its amazing really how God's love never fails, it can be so ever patient, disciplines you yet still loving. His teaching me to do the same for others, to see their destiny and not their history.

..... you make all things work together for my good

Tiada Ternilai

2010-10-22T22:28:00.004+10:00

Fell in love with this song the moment I heard it.... loved it!

DI HATI-MU TERUKIR NAMAKU
DI MATA-MU TERLUKIS WAJAHKU
BUKAN KAR’NA KUAT GAGAHKU
NAMUN HANYA KAR’NA KEMURAHAN-MU

MESKI TERKADANG AKU TERJATUH
TAK PERNAH LELAH KAU HAMPIRIKU
MEMELUKKU DENGAN CINTA-MU
BETAPA BESAR MULIA KASIH-MU

BAGI-MU TUHAN S’GALA PUJIAN
HORMAT KEMULIAAN
TIADA TERNILAI SALIB-MU TUHAN
SUNGGUH BERHARGA ENGKAU YESUS

Inspiring Love Story

2010-10-17T08:43:00.006+10:00

This is really inspiring, its amazing when you let the creator of the universe write your love story. :)

p.s- As usual this probably won't show up on FB as its directed linked from my blog so just click 'view original post' down the comment section and watch it.

The Smith family

2010-10-11T19:54:00.007+10:00

Haven't heard of them?

This is what they're all about.. unlocking opportunities fro disadvantaged Australian children through education and learning.

I got approached by them once, asking to donate and support their organization, but thinking that Australia is such a well developed country there's no way that children can be disadvantaged and told them I rather use that donation for Compassion, another charity organization. oh boy, was I wrong, like any other countries there are disadvantaged families out there that has low income, or even maybe a single mum that has to work two jobs to support her children, even in the midst of economy downturn people become jobless and can't support their children. Therefore The Smith Family focuses on helping disadvantaged children get the most out of their education, so they can go on to make the best of their lives.

You can click on the link on the top right hand corner to have a look. Even though you might not want to donate or sponsor a child, it's still worth checking the site and their videos to see how this awesome organization is making a difference in the community.

OR for those who are looking for a volunteering job, now is your opportunity to volunteer and work for The Smith Family.

If you're Australian (or international) and has seen the need to help disadvantaged families....what are you waiting for?? Let's make a difference and do good for the community!

p.s- If you're reading this on facebook, please click 'view original post' (right at the comment section) and the link is right there on the website :)

The call to Nazarite Consecration- Lou Engle

2010-10-10T12:19:00.006+10:00

This was written by Lou Eagle, and thought of sharing it with you guys..this has been my heart, the inward burning for God.... be blessed

Summoning the Consecrated Ones If there is one word that describes the young godly ones in this generation, it is consecrated. This is the martyr spirit. As William Wallace said in Braveheart, “Every man dies. Not every man really lives.” They understand that to lose their life is to find it and they have crossed the line of commitment once and for all. Consecrated: to separate from the common to a sacred use; to be officially declared holy; to give one’s life completely to a particular purpose; to be devoted irrevocably to the worship of God.

The Nazirites arose in the darkest times of Israel’s history. God raised them up primarily as a youth counter cultural resistance to the spiritual decline of Gods people and a holy protest to the increasing domination of Baal worship over the hearts of those called to the jealous love of Yahweh. These firebrand extremists became the conscience of the land, rebuking apathy and indifference toward the worship of Yahweh. These young men and women became the hinge of history and the course of the nation turned upon them. When God wanted a new era, a new prophetic priesthood and turning back of a nation to God, He raised up Samuel, Samson, and John the Baptist, lifetime Nazirites. Nazirites! The word Nazir in Hebrew means ‘consecrated one; separated one; a person of the vow.’ The Nazirite had a desire, an aching, burning desire to be close to the Lord. Last night on a live web chat on Elijah Revolution.com, a young lady expressed how she feels a continual burning inside her, a burning hunger for God, That is the Nazirite burn. Jesus said of John the Baptist, a Nazirite from his birth, “he was a burning lamp and you enjoyed his light for a little while” (John 5:35). The true Nazirite is a burning man! A true Nazirite is a burning woman! Have you ever felt this inward burning for God? That burn is more holy than anything on earth. Treat it as holy, guard that fire. For that fire is God’s burning heart of jealous desire for you. “Or do you not think Scripture says without reason that he Spirit he has caused to live in us longs jealously for our devotion?” (James 4:5) Praise God the law of jealousy is moving in America and is creating extreme passion in a young generation to separate themselves from other lovers in a vow of purity and holy intimacy.

The Nazirite movement in the scripture was a counter cultural youth protest against the Baal worship of that day. Whenever great spiritual decline and evil began to take over in the land of Israel, these Nazirites would begin to appear in great numbers. These holy youth were God’s preservative for the nation of Israel. And they are God’s preservative in our nation today. During these days, is God calling you to some commitment of separation from the world? How about turning your TV off for 40 days. How about waking an hour earlier, to seek God and pray for revival? Do you love God more than sleep? How about drinking juice for 40 days, expressing your burning desire for God in fasting? Separate yourself from video games and Internet pornography.

May you burn for God more than you burn in lust for this world! O Nazirite generation arise! The Nazirite not only separated himself to God in a vow of holy devotion, but is seems that the vow had a definite kingdom purpose in mind as well. John the Baptists’ vow had to do with turning a whole generation back to the God of their fathers. God, I pray that across America you would raise up a counter cultural youth movement of extreme devotion to God to God to resist and stem the tide of evil in the land. Let Your jealousy be aroused again. Judge the idols of our hearts. Turn the nation back to You. Raise up the Nazirites!

Consolation Prize

2010-10-05T00:31:00.017+10:00

Definition of Consolation Prize from yourdictionary.com- A prize given to a competitor who loses or does not win the first prize.

Just want to share a lil something I got from work two weeks ago. We are having our annual church and I was fighting very hard at work to try and get my leave approved, because the status has been unknown for a month. Cut the story short, I wanted to for camp so badly, I've never missed one and hearing the good stuffs we'll be getting made me want to go so much more.... but I got a 'I Declined your leave' that left me in tears. Next day at work I got couple of good tips + an email from one of the guest sent to the resort saying how I'm awesome, and the best...........kidding XD but the email was praising me of the work I've done for them and how I've been helpful and they appreciated it. I was like wow! A personal mail praising me! I know it might seem like a small thing to you guys but it was huge for me.... I've been dreaming to have one of those at work and I got it. I was thinking 'mmm... so I don't get to go to the camp but I was blessed at work today.. maybe its a consolation prize for me'

That's how I felt.

Then again I learnt the power of having people people around you believing for a miracle and breakthrough for you when you don't seem to have it. There was no effort for the need to strive and believe believe believe. I know sometimes people say 'You must have faith, you must have faith, you got no faith' and put pressure on the poor person who's already having anxiety to have more. However telling the person that you're believing for a miracle for them puts them at peace... they don't have to fight, they are in faith and they have rest and peace through the storms and that was how I felt. The awesome people around me had faith to believe for me and was praying for me. Don't get me wrong I was praying for it as well but there was no sense of anxiety or any hard effort. (I believe sometimes there are seasons we need to push in as well). Anxiety deflates the greatness of God.

The Last day of work before my weekend and three days before camp I got a call from my manager and asked if I still wanted the weekend off for camp. Apparently one of my colleagues wanted to work and asked my manager and so managed to cover the shift for me. Praise God! God owns everything, and managed to turn the situation around even though it seemed bleak, how cool was that?

Then it hit me. God does not give consolation prize. Those are for people who lose and do not win the first prize. In God's kingdom EVERYONE is a winner in His eyes, He wants the best for His children and His timing is perfect. God does not want to give consolation prize to mock us.... He wants us to keep going for Gold, even though sometimes we fail or feel like losers.

But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first. -Matt 19:30
my version of this would say '..... the loser will be the winners'

Through the fire......

2010-09-30T00:48:00.002+10:00

Its time for the season of harassment to stop..... thus far and no further... you will not steal my worship, my fire, my passion, my city, my nation, my dream...... Shut Up and Sit Down! I say no more, this ends today, I'm getting breakthrough each step of the way.

I'm not good as....

2010-09-18T19:21:00.007+10:00

This thought always comes up and I don't like it. Whenever I hear a powerful testimony or hear what other people have achieved I tend to look at myself of what I've done or what I haven't seen and I start putting myself down with thoughts like 'man I can't go to where they're at, I feel like an ant compared to these giants' and just things that would bring me down. Yes, the aftermath of that is that I'll probably go insane, go depressed for awhile and lose focus. Worse, there comes the religious spirit that would go.... I have to do this, do that to get to where these guys are at out of stress and my lack of identiy in Him.

From my previous post I wrote that I complained a lot, and I should stop doing that. Made me realize how I was like the Israelties who saw God's goodness and power and yet still had unbelief, complained and got therefore wandered in the desert for 40 years. Made me realize part of me had unbelief therefore I started to complain and compare. not a good thing.

Problem here is simple, I lost focus on God and who He is. You know the famous verse 'Not by might, not by power, but by my Spirit?' Both Might and Power are attributes of the Holy Spirit, its not the attributes but the person that has it, its not the signs, but what the signs points to. The works points to the person...... selah.

God has taught me to slow down and rest these few days. I have been running up and down, always busy BUT I've learnt to just rest and have peace. Not peace as in no wars, no conflict, no noise but a peace that focuses on the Presence of the Person, then you know that He has dominion over all the storms in your life. Bill Johnson said 'the place of rest is a place of strength' So soak in His presence and let God do what He needs to do... stop striving. Its ALL of Him or Nothing,

See you in church!

get a grip

2010-09-12T07:31:00.006+10:00

Not feeling the best in the past two weeks, been procrastinating in not applying for my PR when I should have. Stupid thoughts and lies just keep going through my head on what is to come. Little things that shouldn't really matter brought me down. Its one thing to be dreaming for something ,wanting to see it happen and another to get your hands dirty and start doing it. There's no one to be blamed but me. For not taking any responsiblity well, for not stepping up when I should have, for not having the right attitude and character. Seriously I'm so good in complaning that I don't do anything about it.

Jesus, I want to fall in love with you again, you are my breathe, my love my life. Forgive me for the times where I've ran around aimlessly doing my own things which doesn't even benefit and help. I need your strength, I need to rest in the shadow of your wings. Just need one touch from You, daddy. I want to be in that place of surrender again where I give you all my dream, every part of me.

I need a new set of 'tires' because mine is almost worn out :(

Hayden Panettiere- My hero Is You

2010-09-07T09:33:00.003+10:00

Found a song by accident, and the lyrics for this song reminds me so much of Jesus. I don't think Hayden is a christian, she's the awesome Claire that can't die in Heroes. Maybe the person who wrote the song was but nevertheless this song is what I was feeling a few days ago. Many doubts just started hitting me but it's so good to make the decision to just get in your bedroom and cry out and seek Him where I can find Him :)

You know I try to be
All that I can
But there's a part of me
I still don't understand

Why do I only see
What I don't have
When my reality
Its things are not that bad

Your faith has shown me that

When my world goes crazy
You won't let go
When the ground gets shaky
You give me hope
When I try to push you away
You never move, yeah

Now when I start doubting and
You help me see
There's a strength, and a mind, and a power in me
Oh believe me thereain't nothing I can't do
My hero is you, yeah
My hero is you

I never saw the way
You sacrificed
Who knew the price you paid
How can I make it right
I know I've gotta try

When my world goes crazy
You won't let go
When the ground gets shaky
You give me hope
When I try to push you away
You never move, yeah

Now when I start doubting and
You help me see
There's a strength, and a mind, and a power in me
You believe there ain't nothing I can't do
My hero is you, yeah
My hero is you

I am a child of God

2010-09-05T09:15:00.002+10:00

So far....

2010-09-03T00:12:00.010+10:00

Been reflecting on what God has done in my life for the past few weeks (and months) and realised that I'm still a work at progress but have been grown from strength to strength and glory to glory. One prayer that I've been praying during the start of the year was to not just catch the revelation from heaven but to experience it. I don't want to just know it but able to live it and experience it out and Praise God, I've been experiencing the goodness and power of God!

This year has been a lot of challenges and ooo how prophecy can really mess your life up! (in a good way) John Jacks prophecied that God will bring challenges to me and to take that opportunity and respond to it. The challenges has come in all areas, at work, in my personal life and in ministry. Been focusing on my new life group Gen418a to focus on how to build it and make it healthy and grow, its mind blowing because I'm still inexperienced and sometimes think I'm incapable, but I want to trust God to use me and cause Gen418 to be one that can bring, faith, hope, love and a renewed passion and vision as people come in, they will experience the tangible love of God and get to know their destiny.

On a side note I want to say that I'm an ordinary man blessed by a extraordinary God. I thought I would have to wait for another 2 years but finally somehow my timing and God's timing is different and He has blessed me with a wonderful mate yay!!! :) I want to continue to grow in this new journey to serve, honor and protect....... ok wait.. stop that sounds like a slogan for the Policeman! urgh. How about being a man that she can trust that I'll always be God fearing, will always be faithful and make her feel that shes the most blessed person in the world ;)

People have asked what are my feelings? The first few times I didn't know how to answer them and gave an answer... I don't know cos I'm shy with my feelings hahaha but now I do after giving it some thought.

I'm nervous yet excited
I'm happy to get the approval and blessings from the leaders and knowing that we're not in this journey alone but there will be others joining the journey with us
It's weird how many people have seen this coming way last year even before I had any thoughts or feelings.
and lastly.... God is good :)

Passion for your name

2010-08-30T13:42:00.001+10:00

Facing your mountains

2010-08-27T09:46:00.006+10:00

All of us has will eventually face a mountain or 'Goliath' in our lives.
And truthfully... the response when God reaveals what He wants to do in my life goes from 'yeah! Bring it On' to 'Oh cripes, what have I gotten myself into' when we really get our hands dirty into it.

We face fears.
David had to face Goliath
Moses had the fear of public speaking
Noah was asked to built an ark and he probably had no idea what it is.
The ten spies had fear when they saw giants in the land.

Bottom line is that God has never asked us to do anything that was easy, if it was then we wouldn't need Him and we must fight through Fear :) Perfect love drives out fear, I believe David had a love and passion for God and his people that he didn't had the fear to face Goliath.

If God has called you, He will equipped, sustain and empower you. Of course it might seem impossible but what is impossible with man is possible with God, that's why in Zech 4:6 it says its by God's spirit, not by our might or power. You may think you are a nobody, or an ordinary person who God wouldn't use. Think again~! God is in the business of using ordinary people to do extraordinary things!!

Acts 4:13

The members of the council were amazed when they saw the boldness of Peter and John, for they coyld see that they were ordinary men with no special training in the Scriptures. They also recognized them as men who had been with Jesus.

Be blessed =)

5 reasons why people quit ministry...

2010-08-21T11:02:00.003+10:00

Read it, love it and got to repost it
Five Reasons Why People Quit The Ministry by Perry Noble

#1 – Burnout
I once heard someone say, “I would rather burn out than rust out.” Uh…BOTH are bad because NEITHER of them finish well. Too many people in the ministry work themselves into a frenzy, never take time to disconnect and refresh and do absolutely nothing for fun…this always goes bad!

When it comes to leadership circles in America we’ve equated being busy with being godly; however, the haunting reality that confronts that idea is what God Himself said in Psalm 46:10, “BE STILL and know that I am God”…not “be busy!”
If we are not taking regular breaks, doing things “just for fun” and disconnecting then burnout isn’t a matter of “if,” but “when!”

#2 – Unrealistic Expectations
Too many people believe that ministry = easy…despite the fact that it seemed to go really bad for everyone in the Scriptures that sold their life out to Him! Jesus went to the “place of the skull” to be crucified…why would we ever believe He would lead us to “the place of the mattress?”

When we impose our plans and ideas on God and refuse to surrender to His…and then things don’t go as planned…it usually leads to people “giving up” because “God just didn’t come through.”

#3 – Criticism
Criticism hurts…it always will…and if it ever doesn’t then, according to my counselor, something is dead inside of you. AND…it is always personal (especially when someone begins with, “don’t take this personally…but…).

You can’t let the critics dicate what you think/feel! If you have a ministry that constantly responds to critics then you will not have one that responds to Jesus. You MUST respond to the people who God has placed in your life to surround you and protect you–that’s not criticism but rather correction. However, you cannot allow those who know you the least to control you the most–period!

#4 – Discouragement
Every church leader I’ve ever chatted with has done some serious battles with discouragement. After your message on Sunday the enemy comes in and begins to accuse you, telling you that you did a pathetic job and that no one is going to come back next week. Heck, I’ve had to battle discouragement during the message before, hearing voices inside of my head saying things like, “you suck, these people hate you…you need to quite the ministry…” and so on.

This is why it is essential for leaders to get in a place like David did in I Samuel 30:1-6…he faced an incredibly discouraging situation and yet someone managed to find His strength in the Lord.
I do this through reading through encouraging letters and emails that I’ve received in the past, placing myself in encouraging environments and focusing on what God’s Word says about me.

#5 – Losing Focus On God’s Power
When we actually believe it is up to us to make people come back to church every week rather than believing we are conduits that God wants to work through to do that very thing…it’s over! Because…we fall into the trap of trying to outdo ourselves every week, every series and every year…and prayer/seeking the Lord becomes something we love to talk about but fail to do. He saves…He draws people…and He uses us to do it. It’s not up to us…but rather allowing Him to work through us to accomplish all that He wants to do!

Face it…on our own we don’t have enough power to blow our nose! We NEED Him…HE is the game changer!!!

THAT question

2010-08-17T23:51:00.000+10:00

Pillar of Support

2010-08-15T10:13:00.007+10:00

Received a text from a good friend of mine to pray for her for some stress and 'crap' she's feeling. Although we haven't contacted each other for months yet there's still this connection that we are family and we're out there to watch each others backs :)

Received an encouraging reply after prayer for her saying 'Thx Jay, you've never failed to be my pillar of support"

It was encouraging to me because for the past few days I've felt crap that I haven't been a good friend to others , haven't been a good brother, haven't been taking responsibility well and well that text just puts a smile on my face and telling me to keep going and not give up. I want to be a pillar of support to My Church and to My friends and family. Let's be a pillar of support to one another's lives through the good times and bad times =)

Reasons great things God is going to do in the Church by Perry Noble

2010-08-07T09:40:00.003+10:00

Got this from Perry Noble's site and after reading it, it has really encouraged and reminded me what God is going to do for and through Hope Gold Coast. I thought 'man I people need to read this!'
Be Blessed!! =)

#1 – Jesus said that HE would build His church…that is a promise and it is true of YOUR CHURCH! (Matthew 16:18)

#2 – Jesus said that HIS Word would not fail to produce a harvest…so if you are faithful in declaring HIS Word then something GREAT is taking place, even if you can’t see it yet! (See Isaiah 55:8-13)

#3 – You are meeting resistance…which means the enemy is pissed! Stay focused on Christ…you KNEW this would happen (Ephesians 6:12, I Peter 5:8)…entrust yourself to Jesus (I Peter 2:21-25) and believe that Isaiah 54:17 is true!

#4 – God is raising up leaders around you, ones that comprehend the meaning of Ephesians 4:11-16, who want to OWN the ministry and be participators rather than spectators.

#5 – God started your church…and He will bring it to completion…HE’S NOT FINISHED WITH YOU YET! (Philippians 1:6)
#6 – The church is STILL His plan, He has NOT changed His mind…and He loves your church just as much as He loves any church!

#7 – He is leading you towards greater steps of faith…which means you are becoming more desperate for Him…and when THIS happens He shows up in amazing ways and does the unexplainable and the undeniable! (Hebrews 11:6)

#8 – Though you may feel discouraged and disheartened…you STILL believe in WHO HE IS and WHAT HE HAS CALLED YOU TO DO! You may have suffered some setbacks lately…but there is something inside of you telling you to not give up on the God who has never given up on you! You’ve STILL got a fire (Jeremiah 20:9) and a hope!

#9 – God has given you a vision…one that is HUGE…one that keeps you up at night. And the fear of NOT doing what HE has told you to do is beginning to trump the fear of man!

#10 – His church is coming together like never before to begin completing each other instead of competing against each other!!! When we all cheer each other on and work together…it speaks VOLUMES to a world that is desperate for Jesus!

'Holiday'

2010-07-26T22:21:00.006+10:00

hoboy, its July and we're more than halfway through 2010! Been reflecting on what has happened this year and can't help but smile at how Good God has been this year (His always good) and how much I've been blessed by seeing breakthroughs for not only myself but for my brothers and sisters. Sure there were times of discouragement and even disappointments but I've learnt to not dwell on it too much but learn to put my faith on what is unseen.

I have been to so many 'holidays' this year that it has really brought me to a whole' notha level and I'm excited! When I said 'holidays' I meant Conference's that I've attended.

Jesus Culture conference in January!! There's no better way than to start a Conference in the first month of 2010!!!
Annual Oceania Convention In April..... Its enouraging to see what God is doing in our movement and the changes we're having
Danny Silk conference- Didn't felt like going for this one because of an issue I had to deal with, but like any other people who 'didn't feel' like going but went anyway, God turned up and messed me up =) This was the first time ever that I went through a fire tunnel and the moment I went in, I felt God put a stamped on my heart and I had that assurance that I'm marked by heaven wow!!
Upcoming Bill Johnson Kingdom Culture Conference!! BRING IT ON!!!

Just an encouragement that I would love to share with you... ]

We can go for conference, get charged up, pumped, refreshed and come back going "we're going to go and do this and that, vision renewed" but later in the week, discouragement sets in, or u didnt get a great encounter or you get bored and we get disconnected and waiting for the next Church service or conference. Why? Because our connection with God got lost in the middle of the week or during the day. My heart longs to see worshippers that will come to Church and Life group all already connected and ready to soak in the Presence, no longer having to 'strive' in worship like Belle would say 'having Spiritual Constipation errrkkk' ><"" but will be able to press in easily. So keep pressing on and don't lose that connection, learn to even worship and be in His presence at work or class, its possible :)

the aftermath

2010-07-19T23:31:00.003+10:00

Soooo Melbourne was heaps of fun except for the 2nd day when my friend started to smoke and for some wierd reason whenever I just breathe in a bit of the smoke from him, my nose would start to itch and I would sneeze like a machine gun in a minute. no kidding. this is the second time its happened and I don't think its a coincidence. and from the flu comes the fever, the rain in Melbourne didn't make it any better either. Worse... i slept at 5am that night, having flu and fever.

On top of that I went camping outdoors during winter... woohoo!! It was actually heaps of fun, making tents, talking and chillin' at the bonfire, cooking and sleeping. Of course my fever didn't get any better but who cares, I had fun XD

However!! I did learnt a big lesson, and it has opened my eyes to see how I wasn't taking care of my body properly lacking in proper vitamins. Sure I drink Vitamin Water now and then but I don't think its as effective as the proper capsule ones. Made me realize the importance of vitamins and figures why I never got sick in high school because mum always gave me vitamins for breakfast :) and I know some will leave a comment on 'what about vegetables?' People are just assuming I DON'T eat them, I DO eat them but i PREFER not to. so start eating! Good news is that I have and I have people around me to testify that for me XD

Other than that a friend sent me a message saying how my blog writing has inspired her to start writing a blog as well and I'm like 'wow! That's pretty cool because I know I'm not a good writer but hey! If whatever things I wrote inspired you then go for it :) "

till then.. I found a cure for my fever... .........Playing my PS3 =P

Off to Melbourne

2010-07-12T09:31:00.004+10:00

somehow facebook is acting up again and all the post I updated here (in blogspot) gets updated in FB a week later. so if you're reading this from FB I'm probably back from Melbourne already

Message from the future: "I'm back from Melbourne and I Love it there!! However there is a danger, Jason is back and the awesomeness of Jason is to great that Gold Coast can't handle the heat!" .....whatever

I'm finally taking a much needed break from work. All the annual leave i've taken was to go to conferences and church related stuffs but this will be a proper break, I'm just gonna go to Melbourne and shop shop, eat eat and sleep sleep. Stoked to meet up with my old mates from high school and see how they're doing, pray for me that I will even have the opportunity to speak into their life or even minister to them.

I sure hope I can enjoy Melbourne!! People are coming to QLD to escape the cold and get the sun, I on the other hand is escaping from the sun and wanting the cold =)

here's something I got from Phil Pringle

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline" 2 Tim 1:7

God's spirit gives us power, love and soundness of mind. Fear robs us of these. Faith in God crushes hatred and realeases love. Fear confuses our mind. Faith brings peace and calm to our troubled heads. So stay in Faith and stay out of Fear!!

See you in Church!

O Praise Him

2010-07-03T17:33:00.012+10:00

I hope facebook doesn't cut out the video I put in my blog, if a video is not showing as usual go to jasonkid87.blogspot.com to watch it.

Wow! This week has been fairly tough for me actually, been a bit dry, started being lazy and all that jazz. But throughout all the tough times, there's only one thing that matters... your connection with God. It was so hard for me to press in. I didn't 'feel' like lifting my hands, I didn't 'feel' to open my mouth or to even open my bible. oh boy, was I wrong, like Jonah I was trying to run away, somehow someway God just brought me into this verse

Psalm 146:1-2 "Praise the Lord, O my soul! While I live I will praise the Lord, I will sing praises to my God while I have my being!"

I love how David says 'WHILE I LIVE' I will praise the Lord.. Wow! its a lifestyle, its your everything, as long as we live, we are commited to Praise His name! To be honest, one flaw I have is that during my own devotional time I would tend to skip 'Praise' and go straight to 'worship' .I'm like yeaaa come on straight into the holy of holies! Boy was I wrong... I have underestimated the power of Praise, Phil Pringle said "Praise opens gates into the presence of God' When you choose to Praise God you're singing on how good God is, what He has done and just that choice of choosing to praise God with your soul when you dont feel like it will bring about freedom, and encourages your spirit to rise up!

The last thing you want is letting the devil silence your mouth and keep you from singing. Don't ever let the devil steal your song, its your key to victory! Whatever is causing you to hang your head down in defeat has been overcomed by the Presence of God in you! so let's start Praising Him! =)

David Crowder Band- O Praise Him

plan plan

2010-06-22T09:07:00.006+10:00

Here I am again thinking I need a break. Hmmm I'm thinking of planning a 4 day trip to Melbourne just to get away from everything and go shopping and eat the good food there :D Regardless if anyone would wanna come with me I'm 80% sure I'll be going. IF you are interested in travelling to Melbourne somewhere in July let me know :)

Plan 1: Trip to Melbourne

If that doesn't work out that I may go fishing or a road trip somewhere, maybe a 7 hour drive to eat Australia's Largest Burger!!!!

Plan 1.5: Eat LARGEST Burger
I'm still planning a trip back to Brunei and Malaysia in October and a return trip via Brunei Airlines is only $650, I miss home, I miss food, I actually miss my family and ~~nagging from my mum~~ oh and how could I forget Shopping?

Plan 2: Fly back to Brunei and Malaysia
There's a mission trip coming up to Africa!! Either Zambia or Mozambique, I'm 50/50 on that but I say one thing that caught my eye that made me wanna go was a word that was on the brochure. Still not a good reason to wanna go but yeah, It'll be awesome.

Plan 3: Mission trip to Africa

I'm going to write a letter... a letter to the future. To who or what is confidential (for now :p) but yea It was a thought that came in and I was like 'oh yea that'll be really cool'

Plan 4: Write a letter for the future

Other than that, this month has really put a blow on my wallet. I have to service my car, fix my acoustic guitar :(:(:( , buy a new case for my guitar effects, wash my car, buy a new shoe cos my work shoe is messed up, buy a new toaster cos I broke one. yupes...... that's alot for a month.

It's ok God will provide =]

And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus- Phil 4:19

Bieber Fever

2010-06-19T00:07:00.001+10:00

Next up... the Bieber Hair!

Sunday Reflections (last week and two weeks ago)

2010-06-11T12:23:00.005+10:00

So I failed to update my blog on time and I have 30 min to spare before I leave to work so I thought hey might as well update it

Do you remember the post from 2 weeks ago on Sunday night reflections about Ps Lai Ling giving a word about me playing the guitar with anointing? well on that same week with that reflections, little did I know Ps Lai Ling came and preached at our church again and again because she moved in the prophetic she was prophesying into different ones and funny enough I got a word from her again and it was about my worship, and how the Presence of God in me is going to flow out to other people and so on. I can't remember the whole thing, (anyone has the recording or took notes?) but I was really touched on how God will be using me and confirming what he spoke to me ages ago and reinforcing the promises he Has for me. God is so so good.

On another note GSL (generation salt and light) started last week and praise God it has been going well. I'm very encouraged for the different ones who came despite their fear, exams and lack of ability but believing that what they've sowed in, they will definately reap in the near future. I want to believe for miracles, people being set free and souls saved during our time in GSL

Some thoughts from 31st and 6th Sunday

Be a 3D disciple- Dedication, Discipline and Dilligence (it wasn't called 3d but seems like a good title tho :P)
Fight for what is HIS
DO NOT DOUBT God's ability to bring forth fruits
Remember Jesus discipled 12 disciples that discipled the world.... (you can be one that will raise the next Billy Graham)
Im excited about the new direction we're going in with the new series on gift-based ministry, everyone is gonna be equipped!
We've heard it many times but here goes..... WE HAVE A RISEN (NOT DEAD) Savior!!
IF Jesus was dead we might as well eat, drink, be merry and die lol
Remember what you do IS NOT a dead sacrifice, even though you do not see it.
Ps Lance: 'When we lose sight of how great the gospel msg is, we will often lose motivation to live it out'

Something I learnt this week was that God's love is furious and strong. No matter how far I've backslidden or how I feel of running away from God, God keeps calling me back, reaching out to me, a father's heart longing to see His son/daughter come back. How, o how much He loves Me(and you) , it brought me back to the song by Misty Edwards where the verse goes 'You won't relent until you have it all"

I am my beloved's and his desire is toward me.-
Song of Solomon 7:10

Let all....

2010-06-03T08:39:00.000+10:00

Sunday night reflections

2010-05-24T10:53:00.024+10:00

Woah, I haven't done this in awhile and I was planning to do this every Sunday. So here's my ill attempt to get this going again and hopefully get the ball rollin' for me.

I remember couple of months back when Ps Lai Ling came down to GC to preach and I was on the worship team, I got so discouraged and frustrated on my own ability to play that, during worship, I actually said 'what am I doing here playing? Might as well not play at all, I sound terrible with my playing and all other nonsense thoughts of just giving up'

For those who were there remembered before the sermon started Ps Lai Ling started to prophecy into different ones. Here I am sitting down, thinking of giving up playing when Ps Lai Ling pointed to me and told me that God is going to anoint me in my playing where a New Sound will come out, something along those lines but all I remember was a new sound from the guitar playing.

Guess what?
After the service many people commented that they felt the worship was different, as if there was a new sound. They said the guitar sounded different and there was anointing in the voice and musical instruments. I've been using almost the same guitar effects for worship and I have never ever change the settings but people said it sounded very good, was different and some were even thinking there was a violin playing lol. As a team we knew our playing and music was dull and dry during practice but after 15min of just worshipping God, I think an angel just pop down and fine tuned the PA system and our instruments to make it sound good, Seriously! :)
Then it pop into my head yesterday on what Ps Lai Ling prophecy that there will be the anointing to play a new sound that will come out thru my guitar playing. Praise God!

I want to believe that God will use me to play notes from heaven,
prophetically....

Other reflections

As usual Puji really imparted his heart to us and God used him powerfully to challenge and convict me
GSL WILL start again (watch out for this space!)
Puji doesn't just preach, his walking it out in his own life, I love people who are being honest and real, they are such an inspiration!
Sometimes we don't realize the significance of God's word
Do I want to live normal life or a Supernatural life
The HARVEST is not the problem, its plentiful! (Matt9:37) The workers are!
And Im one of the lazy workers that got his butt whopped big time. Thx for waking me up God! :)
I've not been good in diciplining myself to do the things I need to do e.g. Praying and during DMM Manging our Time+ Praying was taught, How awesome is that?
got me thinking, WHAT IF I had prayed more, WHAT IF I had taken that time just to intercede..... this wouldn't have happened, this Could happen
yea right.. no what if.. whats done is done. I need to get my prayer life to be consistent again
its time for the unchurched to be churched!!

quick update

2010-05-23T07:58:00.002+10:00

So I haven’t update my blog for quite awhile now. Haven’t been doing much with blogging, msn-ing, or even facebooking. Guess its a good sign.

Went on a camping trip last weekend down to Boonah and sleeping outdoors under the tarb at 0 degrees? Sick! Woke up with ice on our face..... (kiddin) Rock climbing was a good experience and I managed to conquered the rocky mountain, with my flabby tummy which was pretty cool. Didn’t get to do much waterskiing but its all cool. Speaking of flabby tummy, I think I need to start doing jogging, and karate again just to get back some muscles and tone my body up, its seriously getting so obvious that people can notice the beer belly I’m having X(

Last week was the first time in a long time where I got so frustrated and depressed by playing sports, the last time was Basketball back home 5 years ago and now I felt it again playing tennis last week, had this stupid feeling that I felt like quitting the sport because I’ve been the same and not improving at all whereas everyone is getting better. There you go again Jason thinking too much and comparing yourself to others. I still don’t have the mood to play tennis yet maybe I should go back to basketball which I haven’t touch for a month..... or maybe not do sports at all ........ far out! XD

oh... and had my first Long Island Ice tea last night... sweeett!! Happy Birthday Renee =)

got to love twitting

2010-05-18T17:25:00.001+10:00

Psalm 100

2010-05-03T19:32:00.003+10:00

Psalm 100
Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth. Worship the LORD with gladness; come before him with joyful songs. Know that the LORD is God. It is he who made us, and we are his; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture. Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. For the LORD is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continues through all generations.

wow wow wow, never before that Psalm 100 has spoken to me in such a real and tangible way. Tired from work and catching up I came back home so dry and weary, but I told myself, I need to spend time with God. It was so hard at first.... my heart was weary, Im almost empty but I told myself to not let my heart be weary in seeking God. crying out ' Pour out more, pour out more, im not satisfied' and true enough after awhile I fought and got my connection. ---> fast forward to free worship... I find myself dancing in my room like a crazy man, up and down, and the joy of the Lord filled me, and God told me that I was dancing in His courts. THING IS for the past 4 days at work has been busy I've been running up and down working and has not let my leg rest properly and because of that one of my muscles was hurting, it was the soft muscles tat allows your knee to bend, whatever you call it. anyway I was dancing and dancing forgetting about the pain and after the worship session I realized my muscle pain was gone and healed!!! =D

When we're dry and broken we come to God, In His presence there will be healing for the broken and thirsty. The outcome I believe should be Joy, the supernatural Joy of God when we enter His presence. Catch the revelation of His goodness and love in your worship times, God's INVITING you to enter Joyfully into God's presence :)

"YOU are His"

Wilson K Surge

2010-04-27T11:15:00.009+10:00

Recently I've been doing my all my shopping on Ebay just cos you can get super cheap good deals on product that are new or as new. In the beginning of the year I got a new phone and replaced my trusty LG viewty with the awesome HTC Touch HD. This is my first windows phone and I can see why after reading the reviews and after using it for 2 months they say this is one phone that can go on par with the iPhone. It can play SNES games, super cool weather function, excellent battery life, and I love the GPS software that you install with it. oh I forgot to mention Mobile Office 2010? Mmmm sorry theres too many people using the iPhone and I know its a good phone but I don't like following the crowd........... annnndddd.... all the iPhone fanboys says 'Boooo'
But the main reason why I'm updating this post was to offically announced I've finally started to play Tennis again after a long 7 years of absence. Woah.. I made it sound as if I'm pro and im making a comeback tour XD Reason why I stopped playing was back in high school, 2 weeks after I pickup tennis I got tennis elbow and that killed my career in basketball which in time I developed much hate for Tennis. kidding. Fear is the right word. Fear that I would injure my elbow again because the first injury took me 3 months+ to heal.

Anyway after finishing watching Prince of Tennis and how Nadal has been popping up in my dream asking me to pickup tennis again I finally mustered the courage to pick up the racket and start playing again.... I got hooked, poisoned, and now everyday I have the urge to play tennis... not that Im good but its so much fun and im in the learning stage so its always fun to learn new things :)

So I got to ebay and got myself a racquet. A brand new genuine sexy sleek Wilson K surge rackquet. The original price is about 280+ and I got it for only $130 which is Strung with Gosen OG Sheep Micro 17 at 59lbs. Comes with a K Factor case with strap, Wilson Pro Overgrip fitted to the grip, head protection tape fitted to the head and a Wilson vibration dampener. Pretty cheap and its a darn good racquet except....... I still suck in Tennis. Actually im ok.... or better than ok.... better yet.. I'll see you in court ;)

Thoughts

2010-04-23T09:27:00.004+10:00

There are so many thoughts running in my head on.....

-The direction of where the Church will be going
-The direction where Gen418 is going
-Whats gonna happen when some of the key people leaves, or will they be staying?
-And if the key people leaves, there's gonna be a huge hole to fill, who is rising up?
-There are some stuffs that is out of our control and we need the Holy Spirit to convict and change.
-Priorities, Balance... Time....
-How much I still have yet to learn, grow and mature.
-The health of the church.
-Whatever happened to us just 'doing life together?'
-We need more locals... especially Aussies.
-My heart yearns to see a Church thats passionate about God, yet being able to love life, love people and having that atmosphere of Faith and purity.

Sorry.... its just me babbling on a fine Friday morning :)

Shout Unto God

2010-04-14T21:27:00.001+10:00

Overwhelmed

2010-04-10T07:44:00.007+10:00

These past few days has been a rocky road for me, there's no landslide yet but I can feel it coming, my heart is overwhelmed and starting to feel discouraged (abit). My heart cries out and wonders what is happening? A new burden has risen, to see Men of God to rise up. Not a title of being a 'Man of God' but living that lifestyle where people can look up and say 'wow, his a role-model who inspires me, and I want to be like him' It's been too long now for the Men in church to be sleeping and not live by the calling God has for them. To be created for their original purpose which is to lead n' set a good example. To live the Prov 31:23 life where the women in the kingdom are looking for.

It even hit me when a brother is going through something and I don't even know what to say or what to do for him as I'm not so close, but my heart does feel for him to come back to Papa God. It really saddens me to see people not getting along with one another because of differences, it saddens me to see men liking to keep things for themselves thinking 'its all gonna be ok' but in reality there's a lion in the cage in their heart waiting to be unleashed. Its hard for us men to be transparent not just to our friends but even God??? really? What is happening?? (Don't get me wrong I was like that, a tough nut crack but God 'cracked' me) Its time to get out of the shell.

I'm not and expert at this but the burden for them has becoming stronger every day, and I know I have to make a stand and do something. I was also reminded about a vision someone had for me that they saw me Leading a group of men.... O'Lord help me, I need your strength and wisdom.

please send revival to our hearts,

please raise up a Generation of Men Like David who is after your heart

please raise up a Generation of Men Like Gideon who will be warriors

please raise up a Generation of Men Like Joseph who runs away from temptation and desires purity

please raise up a Generation of Men Like Daniel who have that culture of honor

please raise up a Joshua Generation that is able to lead the people.

More importantly one that models the Character of Jesus and shines forth His Glory.

I pray against the enemy that is putting the men to sleep

break the ego, break the pride, break the insecurities, break our heart

I pray that we will not be silent, its time to get out of our shell....

Give us courage, awaken our heart

Unite us that we may transform the world

2010-04-02T11:57:00.002+10:00

A shift in the atmosphere is happening, there is an awakening...
Hearts are stirred and Hope and Freedom will released.....

Bday post

2010-03-26T08:01:00.006+10:00

Our Annual Oceania Convention will be held in Gold Coast this year woohoo!! It's gonna be great and I can't wait to meet old friends and new ones. Can't believe its one week away and htere's so much to do! I'm glad to be playing for the opening ceromony, I guess 'part' of the dream is fulfilled.. why i say part is beacause not just me but I guess all of us in HopeGC hopes to play for the worship session in the OC but thats not bound to happen just yet. However I am honored to have the privilage to be a PA to my pastor hehe. I'll be slavin, doing his laundry, clearing his meals, putting notes on seat saying 'reserved' and how can we forget buying lots of coffee? kidding. Will be a good experience, just hope I don't mess up.

On a side note yes my birthday was on the 23rd and it was alright. I guess as you get older you wouldn't want to be celebrating much anymore(IMO) Time flies and sometimes I see what people are already doing when they're 23.... some are making huge money from businesses, some are influencing the world, some are doing great things for the kingdom and so forth. So what did I do on my bday? Worked in the morning and then Millie, Angela invited me for a movie which was pretty cool.

Banana gurl made this elmo..... Do I look like Elmo? ... seriously!! XD

Oh and also these lamos (in the pic) woke me up at 12am on the 23rd WHEN I WAS SLEEPING with a cake and a 'graveyard' drink... don't ask. Woke up 5.45am next morning with a headache... geez. thx guys =] But I would like to thank everyone that wished me a happy bday, it really meant a lot to me and made my day so thank you all!! love ya!!! muakz!!! eeeeee

The more I seek

2010-03-14T08:07:00.006+10:00

Recently I stumbled unto this song and fell in love with it right away. I know for guys sometimes its hard to express their love to God with lovey dovey words and actions. Most Men like to look 'tough' get into the spiritual warfare, fighting the demons and these kinda stuffs but if there's one thing we can learn from the women in this generation is to just learn and sit beside the feet of Jesus and just love him, and being in His presence. Just like Mary who is a worhipper that seeks to be with Jesus rather than being 'busy' serving.

Do we often express our love to God these days? Or His love for you? We can get busy with focusing on mountains, problems, promises. I love what John Mark Mcmillan wrote on his song 'How He loves us' I don’t have time to maintain these regrets, When I think about, the way ...He loves us,

I know its weird but I just find myself laying on Jesus's lap as I sing this love song to Him and my heartcry was what is written in the lyrics of the song. Guys.. its ok to express your love to God and even through this lyrics.... its what makes Guys Beautiful, just to love Jesus and expressing your love to Him. Guys can be strong, wild, tough and yet beautiful at the same time you know? :)

So this is the song I found and thought you all might like. Be blessed :)
If its not showing up on the blog due to FB problem here's the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZfsxydxEXA

The More I seek You- Gateway Worship

The more I seek you

The more I find you

The more I find you,

The more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet

drink from the cup in your hand.

Lay back against you and breath, hear your heart beat

This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.

I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

YOU In Wonderland

2010-03-06T11:55:00.007+10:00

Hey guys, THIS Sunday, Hope Gold Coast will be embarking on a journey down the rabbit hole unlike any other.

On the 14th and 21st, we will being having our Wonderland Series

Who: All are encouraged to come in costume to fully immerse yourself in the wonderland experience. (Wiki it if you don't know the characters :p)

Where: Enterprise Centre Southport.

What: A fun filled time where we can hear how to embrace God's wonderland (kingdom culture) in our lives.

Bring: A plate of party food, and or high tea assortments if you like. (Eg. pretty cup cakes, cream puffs chocolate eclairs etc)

Come and join us for the adventure of a Sunday Church Service lifetime.
It's going to be amazing!!!

(Let me know if you need directions or transport)

Trust God for who He Is

2010-03-04T16:42:00.006+10:00

Yay finally got my internet, we just got our ADSL2+ yesterday.... so the saga of moving houses, buying new furnitures and clothes are all done. yay! Now I'll be able to update this blog and might even be thinking of changing the skin hehe.

if there's one thing I learnt through all this is that sometimes we suffer, face trials,hardships.... we pray for an outcome, we pray for God to do this and that. All these are good but there are times we can get sidetrack and focus on the outcome rather than the person. We should remember to trust God for WHO HE IS and not only What He does. consider not the situation but How much He loves us and for God to show us His character through all this, then he will reveal His greater purpose.

Trusting God for who He says He is will bring about the destiny he has for you and not force things to happen before its time.

"Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell me if you know so much

Who determined its dimensions and stretched out the surveying line?

What supports its foundations, and who laid its cornerstone

as the morning stars sang together and all the angels shouted for joy?"

Job 38:4-7

Sozo + Vision Sunday

2010-02-25T11:56:00.002+10:00

I know, I've said I won't be blogging till I get my internet but I just felt the need to blog anyway =P

Whats Happening.

Saturday- Throw a Snag on the Barbie. (BBQ) If you're interested to get on the beach, n just chill before Uni starts then come along and join us!

Sunday- Sozo+Vision Sunday
Sozo definition from studylight.org
to save a suffering one (from perishing), i.e. one suffering from disease, to make well, heal, restore to health

we'll be emarking on an new exciting series called 'Sozo' ALL ARE WELCOME to join to learn to be healed yourself from past hurts, scars, that are deep. Also learn how to be used to heal others! It's seriously gonna be great....

Also God has something exciting installed for us this exciting year, come and discover the call of God in our church on impacting the Gold Coast and discover your destiny and God's vision for you life =)

If you're reading this you're officialy invited and if you're on the Coast you HAVE To come, if you're anywhere else drive, fly here because its that worth it! kidding... (or am I?)=P

hiatus......

2010-02-16T19:37:00.003+10:00

Yes, this blog will be on hiatus indefinately till I get my internet. It's amazing how priorities in your life changes when the internet is not there. Sounds s2pid but Two major things I noticed in the past 2 weeks without having the internet. Its amazing how clearly you can hear God more clearly without the internet =P

1.) I started dedicating to playing and practicing on my guitar more after more than 2 months of absence.
2.) I got time to reflect on my Spiritual, emotional and phyical health.

Spiritual

I find myself at times seeking God's hand rather than His face......and........
Learnt to trust and seek God for WHO HE IS not what He can do!
I need to learn to grow in carrying in the presence of God, I am dreaming of this and so encouraged by testimonies from Charles Finny and even Peter when his Shadow just healed the sick.. WOW!
Had a breakthrough in my life moving in the spirit more after that 20day fast.

Physical

Need to set aside a time to start interceding again, havent been doing that since I've moved house
Started playing basketball again (finally) and.... after a long 6 years I've picked up tennis again.
I'm starting to look old and skinny. I was all skin and bones during the 20day fast and injured my shoulder+spine when I was playin the guitar in Church. (didnt know guitar was so heavy!) Need to start taking care of my skin properly, its getting wrinkly XD
I'm adding veggies in my meal, don't worry guys!!!

Emotional

Having imaginary arguments with people in my mind over stuffs people said to me or things they said made me go crazy
I had issue with Pride, thinking TOO much of myself which affected my self-esteem. I should think of myself less but not think less of myself. Thank God, God's been speaking to be bout servanthood and humility (alot!!)
Want to learn to speak life to people, encourage them and lift them up.... more

That's just a couple of stuffs that I was reflecting on anyway =) See you till I get my internet !

Oh no...

2010-02-08T15:19:00.001+10:00

moved out!

2010-02-06T17:34:00.002+10:00

Finally moved out, got a new place which is heaps better than the other house, had a couple of dramas here and there , some people weren't very helpful, and lets just say it was very stressful. I'm glad and happy that we moved in to the house we got, it was really a miracle how we got it within 24 hours with only 2 person applying for a 4 bedroom house. Some problems came up during the moving process.... wasn't to serious but I'm hoping God will do something that I don't deserve. With all the crap that has been going on while moving, I never thought I'll say this but I actually was looking forward and actually enjoyed my work... guess its just getting away from everything and just talking to my awesome colleagues and the friendly guests really helped alot.

anyhoooo, its a brand new place, with a brand new start and I got the smallest room in the house but its looking very sexaayyy I must say ;)

Don't have the internet yet, so won't be updating much this week.

Eph 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us

Sunday Night Reflections, 31-1-10

2010-01-31T23:00:00.004+10:00

Got this idea from Perry Noble and will be trying to do this regulary every Sunday. Its good to do this and just remember and reflect on the day :)

Had one amazing gem gave his life for Christ today, yay!! one soul saved!!
Have learnt to take risks and just go for it, thank God if you missed the opportunity God will send someone else for He holds all things together.
Dreaming of more souls saved from treasure hunting and friendship evax
Antitode for Conceited is Humility
Learnt that brokeness is the key to success as you go for God, you go for Gold and God hears our cry.
have taken the step to be more transparent and real, and not pretend "I've got it all together"
We get spiritual amnesia forgeting God's grace
Promotion comes from God
Best revelation? From the Bible
I want God to break me to make me who He wants me to be
I've learnt to not keep words to myself and just obey His voice and give it out.
PACKING AND CLEANING THE HOUSE IS A PAIN!!!
Carried 60+ bags at work today alone + furnitures from house? Ouch.
God's doing a work in my heart on humility, always checking my heart
It's end of January and when people comes back in February they'll be wondering if they were in the same church as few months ago ;)
Heck ya!! great things are happening in Hope Gold Coast and there are more to come, never park on your success, move on for more!!

no updates

2010-01-28T14:05:00.001+10:00

no update on my blog for the moment because my internet's capped and its running 80% slower, and we've been busy running around trying to get ou rnew house sorted. we haven't got the house yet and we need to move out in like err.... 2 days? really praying for a miracle.

Other than that, im really excited on what is to come next month and months go come. I'm still at the stage of preparation but I sense a breakthrough and the season will come when I do not expect it but Ill definately be prepared before it comes

resurrected dream

2010-01-21T22:20:00.005+10:00

Prayer meeting between me, Jesus, God and the Holy Spirit was so awesome today hahaha. As I was praying and visioning what God has for me, God reminded me about a dream I had before.....seeing Japan be won for Christ. I then said ok " I'll pray for missionaries to go in, church planters, etc. but then God was challenging me... telling me "that was all good but those aren't big enough" Immediately I knew what He meant and I couldn't pray , I was so afraid of praying 'that' particular prayer... was so afraid of being called to do what I will be praying for. In my heart I want to see it come to pass, Its a God-size dream, Its a dream thats in my heart but I wasn't willing to pay the price for it because I was looking at my own limited human limitations.

for a short moment.. I paused and then was reminded of the teachings from Jesus Culture, reminded of Revival, reminded that im not a failure, being like Caleb going 'give me that mountain' ,then supernatural courage came in and I started praying for revival, praying for God to use me, and literally I knew God was asking "are you willing to go?" and I responded just like Isaiah did "Here I am Send me, use me, mould me, break me, to be a vessel to bring revival to the nations" (oh man, what am I getting myself into XD )and man this is huge but I want to see Japan be turned into a Christian Nation.... crazy, I know.... Impossible... with man yes, but not with God. there are so many things I can say about this dream I have for the nation but thats saving it for another time.

The Point is this.... I was afraid of taking risk, I was afraid of praying that prayer, praying for that dream because somehow I had a thought 'I cant do this, how can God use me'. I've learnt (and its true) that many men forsake their dreams because they aren't willing to take risk , or fear they arent up to the challenge, or know the desires in their hearts are good. We men have become complacent, lazy, wheres the courage, where are the risk-takers? we don't fight for the desires in us.....

HOW??? Is the big question we would ask but thats God's deparment not ours, we are to respond with a willing heart and God can use your life empowered to shake cities, to release a cry of outpouring of His spirit on the nations. the question is not 'how' but 'are you willing? willing to fight for that Dream that God has placed in you?' Start to believe God for the impossible.

Jesus Culture conference

2010-01-13T14:36:00.003+10:00

Will be heading off to Jesus Culture conference tomorrow! woohoo~~ can't wait!! I'm so prepared for the conference, ready to have a powerful encounter with Jesus, ready to be trained and equipped to bring revival to the city then the nations......

See you on Sunday!
Get ready to bring the kingdom of heaven to earth!

Things to get done

2010-01-10T09:02:00.003+10:00

Things I need to get done in January

1.) Pack up my stuffs
2.) Find a new house
3.) Clean the house
4.) Find money to pay cleaner for the house (help anyone? =P )
5.) Complete my ‘thing’, 16 days to go, O gosh
6.) See a breakthrough after that
7.) Oh and also go eat KFC
8.) And eat Good Jeepeeeneseee Fooooddd
9.) Still need to get a new hairdryer
10.) Set up a timetable for my daily activities for the week after I move out
11.) Start playing my guitar again, been neglecting my babies
12.) Sell my junks, anyone interested in buying a computer desk and a drawer dresser?
13.) Find a way to earn more $$
14.) Attend Jesus Culture Conference.... oh wait! I already am!! Woohoo!!
15.) Need to make time to hang out more =)
16.) Enlarging my vision
17.) Enlarging myself
18.) Increasing my awesomeness...... wa sehhh hahahaha =)

Nothing is impossible - Planetshakers

2010-01-09T22:16:00.002+10:00

The title speaks for itself

Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible

Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible

I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel

Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything

I believe, I believe
I believe, I believe in you

If you're reading this from Facebook pls click 'view original post' above to listen to the song :)

Gateway worship- You are Good

2010-01-07T11:20:00.003+10:00

Amazing song written by Kari Jobe from Gateway Worship - You are Good

Verse
Your kindness, leads me to repentance
Your goodness, draws me to Your side
Your mercy calls me to be like You
Your favor is my delight

Every day, I'll awaken my praise
And pour out a song from my heart

Chorus
You are good, You are good, You are good,
And Your mercy is forever
You are good, You are good, You are good,
And Your mercy is forever
You are good, And Your mercy is forever

Bridge
Your kindness is forever
Your goodness is forever
Your mercy is forever, forever

2010 : Dreams- Moving ahead

2010-01-02T21:30:00.012+10:00

There are so many things we all want to do in 2010, we say its a brand new start of the year, we are looking ahead to the great things that are about to come, no doubt about that, but there are times especially for me after the 1st or 2nd month the vision starts to die, the dream starts to fade.
Here are some things to help you kick start the year 2010

Think positive thoughts - I love it how David says that God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble (Psalm 46:10) Negativity is from the devil, don't listen to it. Heck, even the devil would tempt Jesus on His identity in Luke saying "IF you are the son of God...."
Forget things from the past - forget what has happened and look ahead, its a new day! and of course we need God's help for that. (Isaiah 43:18) Forget the former thing,do not dwell on the past!
Visualize your dream - (Isaiah 43:19) See, I am doing a new thing! Do you not see it? The dream, the rhema word God spoke to you many years ago, or just last year or even 10 years ago. Start believing and visualizing it, know that God is good and His promise will come to pass. The dream and vision may start dying and fading of now, but its time to resurrect that dream, to believe in His promise. I bet whenever Abraham sees the stars he would remember God's promises. Oh and also Set goals and clear steps towards it!
Give thanks and Praise continually to God! - Even if you haven't receive the promise, Give thanks! again I love how David in Psalm 103: 1-2(NLT) saying Praise the Lord, I tell myself, with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name......(v2) ......and never forget the good things he does for me. Remember that God is good and the good things he has done though the good times and bad times. Know that discouragement and disappointment are opportunity for miracles.
Pray Pray Pray! - When you pray.. you're confessing with your mouth on what God had said. Praying also lifts up your faith, pray in a way that your faith will be lifted up just as the first time you got your rhema word. Start praying for the things you have stop praying for. As Bill Johnson said "Pray that God will resurrect prayers and promises"

What am I believing for? There are many things I'm believing for but one thing for sure is for my awesome Life group Acts29 to grow, multiply and be and influence!! (and through that the Church can grow!) I'm believing that this year I can be a leader, one that has a heart of humilty to serve, care and influence. I'm boldly saying it because I know God has spoken to me ,I'm seeing myself just how God would see me, through God's eyes not my eyes =)

I'm believing for my sheeps (ok I never really like the term sheep)*coughs* the people I'm taking care of for spiritual growth and to be Men of God and that they too can leave a legacy

I've only shared this with a couple of people but this is the promise that God had for me mid last year during my prayer times as I was dreaming of doing great things for God and of revival. The Lord told me 'Be a person of destiny that will leave a legacy' (thus my blog heading) God was challenging me to give all of me for all of Him, because I've learnt that a great calling comes with a great price and that may involve more time off the computer and more time praying, fasting, and reading the Word, wow *sweats* bring it on! I challenge you all to live the destiny that God has called you to :)

Okay there are other things but I think I've rambled on enough.... XD

EepppppYYYY Neeewwwwww YYaaahhhhh!!!!